Life, Prose, Shorts, Thoughts, Time, Uncategorized


The world is currently amassing into groups and crowds as the global clock ticks towards the end of the day. The end of the month. The end of the year.

As expected, numerous blog post will post up new things to look forward to in the new year, or new outlooks to embrace, or games to expect or movies to anticipate, so on and so forth.

Some will congregate inside churches, dancing, praising and worshipping their way into the new year, while the others will congregate in clubs and bars and all, dancing and welcoming in the new year with unbound reverie.

The darkness outside forces me to cast my mind back through the year, to inspect on how the year has gone and all I have is a sober gratitude to my Maker that I’m at the door to the next one.

If I localise the feeling, it’s been a wonderful year. I’ve got a girlfriend. I’ve got a new job. I feel different and happier. There’s a new respect between my dad and I. While admittedly, I have a few gripes with certain plans, it’s been a good year.

If I expand the circle past the boundaries of home, the world has become increasingly dangerous. Radicalism is back on the rise as people take advantage of deep seated frustrations and transform them to hate. So we’re back to hating each other as the ones that rule us intentionally cause discord and divide between us.

I don’t know what next year holds.

But my hands on the door, and I guess I can only hope and pray that next year goes as God wills it to.

Happy New Year in 3… 2…

Coping System, Thoughts, Time


The vision for spring this year was different to what I had originally imagined. First there is the issue of UK’s tumultuous weather (who can’t seem to decide correctly what it should be doing for spring time) and then we have the general outlook of everything else; Baroness Thatcher’s passing away, North Korea’s ego issue (they are honestly threatening war, when all signs are pointing to their loss) and other everyday news, I guess…

That being said, that’s not the purpose of this post; that was just background setting.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today… you know, the side in which you wake up with memories and emotions you ‘sorta’ thought had been resolved and had long since gone by now, but turns out, they were just on holiday. So you get up, attempt to go on with your day’s routine but for some reason, the memories (and emotions) are interfering with your mood, and hence, interfering with the way you go about your day. So here I am, writing to sort it out (Again) and hope that it honestly goes.

I have really never been one to dwell on bad things when they occur. I tend to give as much as I feel is needed on the issue before then moving on and changing into a more positive outlook on life. Which usually tends to work but it has occurred to me, that it is becoming harder as I mature, somewhat. And its not like it is anything new, it is still the same old stuff… (+ a one or two new additions)

so you know;

  • Job (soon come, eventually)
  • Finances (tied to the first one)
  • Losing friends (which I have to start getting used to)
  • Frustration (comes and goes, depending on the day)
  • Misunderstandings
  • Getting taken for granted

Same. Old.

New addition though, turns out I might be losing my Bestie. Not as in, losing her friendship, more like drifting away from her… So basically like from Best friends, back down to Close Friends, then Good friends and then just Friends…

At this point in time, I’d say she’s in the ‘Close Friend’ stage… that is how I feel, based on the sporadic & disjointed interactions and conversations I have with her lately. And with the way my life is slowly progressing, there is the thought that I might not find anyone who would be that close to me any more.

Which in all honesty sucks; seeing as she is sort of my confidant and my advisor on certain instances.

But life trudges on, right?


Thoughts, Time

C’est la vie

It is the new year.

And already, I am mighty impressed with how it is going. Looking through some of my drafts on this blog and I’m suddenly astonished at how mindsets and outlook can change in days. Some weeks ago, I was going through a craziness in my life. I mean, I was practically ranting about how crap a year 2012 was.

It was a bad year. I learnt a lot. I grew. I matured. Nevertheless, it was a bad year for me.


This year began different. Something had to be done to rectify last year’s damage on my mind and heart and I set out to begin on that journey. And no, I don’t actually have a new year’s resolution for the year. I just have a simple mindset.


  • Hobbies
  • Study
  • Job-Hunting
  • Life goals
  • e.t.c.

It isn’t meant to be easy to do BUT it has to be done. It had to be done. Figured it was one of the most important cog in my current life so it would be best to do something about it. And that was just an expect. I’ve got quite a few things planned for the year, but oddly enough, this is probably the first time I have ever felt at peace with just taking things day by day.

I guess what I’m driving at is the mentality. Someone once pointed out an obvious ‘duh’ fact that each day possesses 24 hours. 8 of which is usually maximised for sleeping. this basically leaves an average of 16 hours each day to make a difference to our lives. And I’m finally getting the urgency to make each day count. Completely.

16 hours is enough time to make your future infinitely better, (especially if we were to view it as the beginning of an exponential growth). 16 hours to invest into your future.

21 years down the line and I’m suddenly re-teaching myself.