I’ve never been open in regards to how deeply I feel, or what exactly I feel on an average day.
Somehow, I learnt from early on to keep such things to myself. Not to say, I am shy in revealing how I feel or telling the truth of what emotions I run through, I’ve always held in check. At some point growing up, after entering boarding school, I learnt to not divulge information needlessly. I will like to believe this was born that.
Nonetheless, that’s all story.
I’m currently confused.
Matters of the heart and what not.
As it turns out, I do like [redacted]. I also like [redacted]. But now, I’m at a point where I don’t think I can keep going everyday without being sure as to who I’m willing to risk asking again. Their relative presence and proximity to me makes my day. They don’t even have to say much.
They are very different and yet, similar in the way they approach situations and the drive that pushes them. They are also currently similar in the way they make me feel.
There are little tell tale signs as to which I should probably confess to. Little clues as to who could possibly be the better bet to lean on. However, at the very same time, there are reasons why they both possibly would not be all so great choices for me.
So I don’t know.
I’m not sure when I will know.
I do know it will make for an interesting day though. When my heart chooses to speak and I keep quiet and watch it serenade the right person I’m supposed to be with, as planned by God. I know, for a strong fact, it is going to ridiculously cheesy.
But I think it would be fun.
… now to prepare for the ‘date’ on friday/saturday *sighs*